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Sunday, 5 January 2020

Today is bird count day – I count birds every Sunday and Monday from November to March or April. If a really cool or rare bird shows up on other days, unfortunately you can’t count them, so to have one show up on count day…wow! And, wouldn’t you know it, a red-tailed hawk decided to show up today, on count day! Unfortunately, he wasn’t close to the house and my camera lens wasn’t strong enough to get a crisp, clear photo of him. But it was enough to clearly see what he was!

5/366 Photo of the day, 5 January 2020 © WQuinn

In addition to count day, it was also “run errands in Ottawa” day too. We left just before noon and didn’t get back until 4ish. During our drive around Ottawa, we passed by signs for a Psychic Fair. At first, I joked we should go in and see what the year holds for us. After completing some of our errands, I had this strong urge that I needed to go to that fair and talk to someone. Mom, being Mom and knowing about my intuition, agreed and off we went.

I rarely go to another psychic for a reading. This is something I’ve been able to do for myself. I’ve always be very in-tune with my guides and deceased loved ones. Until lately.

I closed the door on my intuitive spiritual counselling business years ago and had no desire to open it up again. A few times I felt guided to do readings for special occasions… but not to hang a shingle out and do it full time again.

Until recently. I feel like I’m being guided to do something. I’m not sure what. As I’ve drifted off to sleep, I’ve asked for clarity to come to my in my dreams. And it has…as clear as dreams can be, which sometimes is not very clear. But I understood I need to listen to my intuition. Listen to what my body is telling me. It’s my best guide, best radar. Think of when you’re on an elevator and someone gets on with you. That overwhelming feeling that you need to get off NOW. Maybe it’s ringing in the ears, pressure on your head, heart racing, hair standing up on the back of your neck, goosebumps…

Off I go to the psychic fair. The energy hits me like a wet blanket on a hot humid day. It’s heavy, hot and feels like desperation. People searching for answers for everyday problems like love, finances, career… answers that come from within if only they’d stop searching outside for them. I walked around the room, checking the energy of each practitioner. Also checking the wait list. I had somewhere I needed to be and didn’t have a lot of time to be here. I found a woman that had one person signed up, after the client she was currently reading for. I added my name to the list and looked around.

I remember those days at the fairs…people walking around, being a practitioner and waiting for clients…the energy is exhausting, but sometimes – as a practitioner – this is the best way to get your name out there, to practice your craft, to help make a difference in someone’s life. They weren’t my favourite days but on a bright note, I did meet some amazing people.

My guides made arrangements to have me moved up the line and I was the next person being read. The reading went well. It was pretty much what I’ve been getting on my own but, even psychics need validation from an outside source every now and then. The bottom line though was to start listening to my body. It’s my compass, my pendulum. My art was also brought up as a way to conduct readings for clients. Very strange and unusual and something I need to sit with.

My guides are saying my early retirement is over and I’m needed back in the world. In a new way. (yet to share that info with me though ūüėČ )

My body is saying it needs a detox. I have a juice detox planned for this week, raw vegan food prepared for a couple of days and we’ll see how the week goes. Definitely time to smarten up and stay away from the foods causing me problems like dairy, eggs and gluten.

As I prepared to paint tonight’s painting, I was being guided to get the acrylic paints. I followed the guidance and continued following it. Funny, I just had the thought about my 365 Creativity Project that ended Dec 31. For almost all of those paintings, I had no idea what to paint. I followed by guidance. For an entire year. I guess I have been listening, at least in part. Anyway, back to tonight’s painting. I think it’s strange, stupid even, to write forgive with two infinity symbols on a painting. But, I’m following my guidance. They haven’t steered me wrong…ever. In fact, whenever I’ve gotten into trouble, it’s because I haven’t listened to them. Free will and all.

I give you…forgive. Forgive what’s happened, forgive what’s to happen. But most of all. Forgive you.

Take a minute and focus on the word forgive. See what happens, what comes to mind, what you see, what you feel, what you know.

I would love to hear your experience with this painting so please leave me a comment below.

Forgive.

w.

5/366 Painting of the day, Forgive, 5 Jan 2020 ©WQuinn

365…day 7

It was a cold, grey, overcast, cloudy, windy, uninviting day. So when I took a break for lunch, I read a book instead of going for a walk. One of the benefits of teleworking, I can crawl into bed during my lunch break and nap, or curl up with a good book and my two cats.

By the time I signed off for the day, I was in need of fresh air and time in nature, so I bundled up and braved the cold. It was dark now, no stars peeking through. I walked around the yard, then headed down to the river to walk the labyrinth. As I stood in the centre, giving thanks and opening my heart to receive, I took in the sight before me: The sky, a gradient of dark blue at the top to light blue as it reached the horizon with clouds of light pollution. Silhouettes in all shapes and sizes of evergreens, and the odd deciduous tree poking out. Snow covered banks, and the river. The river, frozen earlier, a portion of it open the last few days, once again frozen, leaving a dark trail in the centre of two white banks.

It was picturesque. I was sorry I didn’t bring my camera and tripod with me, then in that split second, I had the thought – why not paint it.

Of course, ego was quick to rule that idea out. Yet, I stood watching the view, enjoying it, soaking it in, taking note of the shadows and highlights. Giving thanks, I continued on my journey out of the centre of the labyrinth and back to the house.

Now was as good as a time as any to work on my painting of the day. In the spirit of 365 days of creativity and a painting a day, I thought, what the hey, it wouldn’t hurt to give it a try.

7/365 Painting of the day
January 7, 2019 ©WQuinn

Not completely what I saw, but close enough, especially working with watercolour paints.

The words I heard on my way out the labyrinth tonight were: trust and believe.

365…day 6

The first week of January has come and gone and, just like that we’re into 2019. How’s it working for you so far? Keeping up those resolutions?

I have six days of creativity under my belt. Six paintings, six writings, and six photos. Well almost six photos. I took one this morning that I’m not overly thrilled with and am keeping the door open to the possibility of something happening later on today.

What I’ve learned thus far is it’s challenging being creative when you’re not in the mood to be. Forcing yourself to be creative…seems counter productive, perhaps even counter-intuitive, but I’m learning it’s the opposite.

By putting myself into the creative space, even if my whole heart and soul are not feeling it, I’m at least showing up, putting myself in a space to receive. You can’t win the lottery if you don’t buy a ticket. You can’t get water out of a tap until you turn it on. By showing up and turning on the “tap” every day, I’m allowing spirit to flow through, bringing ideas to me, allowing creativity to flow in and through me.

I’ve been amazed by the paintings. Starting with a blank canvas, having no idea what to do, or the direction it will take, I just follow my intuition, listen for clues, try this, do that, what do you want to do? Then following the advice, taking a step back and being amazed at the final result.

The photo a day hasn’t reached that level of creativity, yet. I’m going to dedicate more time to it next week and see what happens.

I think the biggest thing I can take away from six days of this creativity project is it’s not about the end result. It’s not about the quality of the painting, photo or writing, but about the process. It’s about showing up, everyday, ready to connect with spirit and challenge myself to listen to their guidance and follow it. I suppose you could call it a form of meditation. Whatever it is, I’m enjoying it and remind myself every day – enjoy the process. Don’t worry about the end product. And don’t worry about what others will think of it. No judging. No comparing. Just peace and love.

006/365 Painting of the day
Jan 6, 2019 ©WQuinn

Following your intuition with a little ASTROLOGY mixed in for good measure.

picture of sunflower painting
Sunflower I painted last summer.

Everything you ever need to know about your life, your purpose, and your next step… you already know.

Trusting it is the hard part. But it doesn’t have to be.

There are some amazing resources* and teachers readily available to help, assist, and guide you on how to access your intuition and, more importantly, to TRUST it.

Now, it can be hard to trust something that isn’t tangible; something that you feel, see in a dream, hear in your mind’s eye or somehow just know. But astrology can help by bringing facts to support your intuition.

I’m not an astrologer, nor do I use or refer to astrology on a regular basis. I’m not the type to read my daily horoscope – although, for a time, I did read a “month at a glance”, but soon realized horoscopes are too general and rarely was I able to relate to them.

However, I do refer to astrology when I’m feeling like I’m loosing my mind and so is everyone around me. I am always comforted by learning that such and such a planet is squared to such and such a planet and there’s an eclipse and so on and so forth. So there’s a reason for the madness around me!

Take the past couple of weeks, for example:

The weeks leading up to today’s solar eclipse, super moon, equinox have, for me, been intense and full of energy shifts and old patterns emerging, coming to the surface to be dealt with so they can be gone for good. I didn’t realize at the time (isn’t hindsight a wonderful thing?) what was going on, just that something was taking place and I was thrown out of my comfort zone and put into situations that were incredibly frustrating. At one point, this week, I was outside, in the freezing cold night, walking the dog I’m sitting and I looked up into the night sky, at the bright stars and I asked for help, I asked for guidance, I asked for support, but most of all I asked for patience. Help me be patient as I ride this wave because I know what’s happening on the surface is not real; it’s only an illusion – a very convincing illusion, but an illusion nonetheless. I kept reminding myself, over and over, of the things that are real and important in my life, of what really matters.

Then I learned about the super moon/eclipse/equinox mixture happening today. Ignoring the fear-based articles in social media about the effects of this interesting combination, I turned to a more trusted source (Mark Husson over at 12house.com or his Facebook page:  and learned what this was all about and how I could expect it to affect me and once again I was blown away by how accurate astrology is. Everything I had been feeling was bang on with what I was supposed to be feeling and what I was supposed to be releasing. Thankfully, I came out of the storm unscathed and better for having experienced it.

Another example of intuition being backed up by astrology:

Several weeks ago I had a strong feeling that I needed to clear my schedule for this weekend, allowing me ample time with little to no distractions to get creative. I thought to myself: what a perfect time as my Mom, who is also my roommate, would be out of town, so I’d have the house to myself, no clients, no volunteering gigs, just me, paper, pen, canvas, paint, camera, nature and whatever else my heart desires! So I did. I cleared my schedule and looked forward to my creative stay-cay. When I look back at the past week, I can see that slowly, I began to turn inward, to crave alone time, becoming less social, almost like I was withdrawing into my cocoon, soon to connect with my higher power and unleash my creative self.I realized, upon waking Thursday morning, we were coming into a new moon. That would explain my need to be alone. When the moon wanes, I often crave quiet, alone time.

I asked a colleague Рwho is passionate about astrology Рfor her take on the super moon, equinox, and eclipse. We chatted at length about how the planets affect our moods and change the energy around us and then she happened to mention Mars is in Pisces but will soon be transiting to Aries. We looked at our charts to see which house this would fall in and, another incredible astrologic moment РMars is currently in my fifth house which explains the urge I have to complete my creative projects and get it all wrapped up this weekend before Mars transits to Aries and my sixth house on March 23.  It explains to me how the intuitive feeling I had several weeks ago to carve out creative time is bang on.

Astrologically speaking, I’ve spent the last several days purging, releasing, letting go and accepting (solar eclipse, super moon, equinox). I’ve followed my inner guidance which said – clear time in your schedule and then the waning moon put me in the mood to isolate myself for a few days. Mars is pushing my buttons to complete these creative projects in PIsces so, when it moves to Aries, it can take my creations to another level – selling them, creating new business opportunities‚Ķ

What I love about astrology – even though I don’t know it well but can rely on the guidance of astrologers to explain it to me – is how it makes sense of the chaos and extreme energies we may be experiencing and gives it a voice; it makes the “what the heck is going on out there” moments easier to understand and accept; and provides proof that what my gut is telling me is bang on and to trust it.

Now I take my leave to go within and create. I’ll see you on the other side (the moon will be waxing) in a few days.

Blessings be,

~ Wanda

*My favourite resource is Pam Grout’s E-Squared. In my opinion the BEST Law of Attraction book on the market today. I love it because it’s simple, to the point and best of all, gives you exercises to try so you can test the theories yourself and record your results. After putting the theory to the test and seeing the results first hand, you can’t help but be pumped and full of excitement that the universe really is abundant and you really can access it…