A beautiful day of sunshine interspersed with clouds and rain. Nothing on my agenda today except to do what I felt like doing.
My phone was at capacity, as was my Google photos account, so you can guess how I spent a chunk of my day…backing up my phone, deleting photos. It was easier to clear the phone and start over than deleting 120+ GB of storage. So I thought. I forgot about all the apps and needing to login again…🤣
I had a close encounter with three turkey vultures today. One flew overhead, maybe eight feet above me. At first I thought it was a raven until I noticed the wing span, larger than the raven. Then I saw the red head. It soared above me, circling the back yard. A second one flew over me, joining the first, circling the backyard. And then a third, flying right over my head, following the path of the other two, joining them as they circled the yard. Their wings outstretched, soaring on the wind. So beautiful, so inspiring and so humbling. One broke the circle, moving north east towards the river. The other two following. What a moment!
Later, a break in the rain clouds, the sun filtered through, lighting up the landscape.
A refreshing change to the temperature today. I stepped out of the hot sun and embraced the cold breeze. I felt like I was standing in the dairy section at Costco, soaking up the cold. A storm blew in and with it came a welcomed cold front. Have I mentioned that I LOVE THIS TIME OF YEAR? Take away the ragweed and this would be a perfect summer day ;
I even saw a rainbow, how awesome is that? I looked out the window and there it was, amidst the dark clouds and bright blue sky.
I woke up today with a lighter heart…lighter and happier than the last couple of days.
My curious nature has me wondering the cause or causes for feeling blue/heavy…
Lack of sleep the last several nights?
The lead up to, and the day, the anniversary of my Dad’s crossing over?
Two cloud covered, white sky, zero sunshine days?
Being in the office…a toxic environment for highly sensitive people?
Not being in nature for several days.
Binge watching TV?
When I don’t :
get enough sleep and eat at regular intervals, I feel like a 2 year old who hasn’t had her nap and find I am not able to cope with even small details. Life seems like a challenge I am not properly prepared for and I feel a meltdown brewing in my solar plexus…ready to erupt.
Spend enough time in nature, I get clouded and loose my connection to earth’s heart beat and rythm.
Have enough sunshine…I am lifeless…less energy, less will.
Spend too much time with large groups of people, I soak up their energy, take on their problems, feel their pain, sorrow, anger, loneliness, unworthiness and it is overpowering.
Add all of this together, plus whatever is going on with the planets in my sign, and it’s the perfect mixture for a perfect storm.
As I write this, I’m reminded of the natural rythms of the universe…the ebbs and flows. Also the Bible verse from Ecclesiastes (ch.3) – or Turn, Turn, Turn by The Byrds – to everything there is a season…
4. A time for tears, a time for laughter; a timefor mourning, a time for dancing… 8. A time for loving, a time for hating; a time for war, a time for peace.
This is a timely reminder (or a friendly kick-in-the-butt) to get back on track with putting my needs first…making me a priority. Over the summer, I got away from going to bed early, limiting tv – especially before bed, staying away from the news, connecting with God and Jesus, and connecting with mother Earth. As I write that last sentence, I feel a longing so deep and strong. I know these words are true as they’re resonating deeply within.
Thinking back, I used to pitch a tent every summer and sleep outside as much as I could. I stopped doing that last year…something spooked me.
And somewhere along the line fear took over. I forgot to let go and let God, that there’s a reason for everything, to trust and believe…I need to get back to that place…I want to get back to that place…I long to get back to that place. I will get back to that place. I am back to that place. I am smiling. I am at peace. My heart skips a beat as I am filled with joy.
Creativity is the calling of the soul 