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Sunday, 5 January 2020

Today is bird count day – I count birds every Sunday and Monday from November to March or April. If a really cool or rare bird shows up on other days, unfortunately you can’t count them, so to have one show up on count day…wow! And, wouldn’t you know it, a red-tailed hawk decided to show up today, on count day! Unfortunately, he wasn’t close to the house and my camera lens wasn’t strong enough to get a crisp, clear photo of him. But it was enough to clearly see what he was!

5/366 Photo of the day, 5 January 2020 © WQuinn

In addition to count day, it was also “run errands in Ottawa” day too. We left just before noon and didn’t get back until 4ish. During our drive around Ottawa, we passed by signs for a Psychic Fair. At first, I joked we should go in and see what the year holds for us. After completing some of our errands, I had this strong urge that I needed to go to that fair and talk to someone. Mom, being Mom and knowing about my intuition, agreed and off we went.

I rarely go to another psychic for a reading. This is something I’ve been able to do for myself. I’ve always be very in-tune with my guides and deceased loved ones. Until lately.

I closed the door on my intuitive spiritual counselling business years ago and had no desire to open it up again. A few times I felt guided to do readings for special occasions… but not to hang a shingle out and do it full time again.

Until recently. I feel like I’m being guided to do something. I’m not sure what. As I’ve drifted off to sleep, I’ve asked for clarity to come to my in my dreams. And it has…as clear as dreams can be, which sometimes is not very clear. But I understood I need to listen to my intuition. Listen to what my body is telling me. It’s my best guide, best radar. Think of when you’re on an elevator and someone gets on with you. That overwhelming feeling that you need to get off NOW. Maybe it’s ringing in the ears, pressure on your head, heart racing, hair standing up on the back of your neck, goosebumps…

Off I go to the psychic fair. The energy hits me like a wet blanket on a hot humid day. It’s heavy, hot and feels like desperation. People searching for answers for everyday problems like love, finances, career… answers that come from within if only they’d stop searching outside for them. I walked around the room, checking the energy of each practitioner. Also checking the wait list. I had somewhere I needed to be and didn’t have a lot of time to be here. I found a woman that had one person signed up, after the client she was currently reading for. I added my name to the list and looked around.

I remember those days at the fairs…people walking around, being a practitioner and waiting for clients…the energy is exhausting, but sometimes – as a practitioner – this is the best way to get your name out there, to practice your craft, to help make a difference in someone’s life. They weren’t my favourite days but on a bright note, I did meet some amazing people.

My guides made arrangements to have me moved up the line and I was the next person being read. The reading went well. It was pretty much what I’ve been getting on my own but, even psychics need validation from an outside source every now and then. The bottom line though was to start listening to my body. It’s my compass, my pendulum. My art was also brought up as a way to conduct readings for clients. Very strange and unusual and something I need to sit with.

My guides are saying my early retirement is over and I’m needed back in the world. In a new way. (yet to share that info with me though 😉 )

My body is saying it needs a detox. I have a juice detox planned for this week, raw vegan food prepared for a couple of days and we’ll see how the week goes. Definitely time to smarten up and stay away from the foods causing me problems like dairy, eggs and gluten.

As I prepared to paint tonight’s painting, I was being guided to get the acrylic paints. I followed the guidance and continued following it. Funny, I just had the thought about my 365 Creativity Project that ended Dec 31. For almost all of those paintings, I had no idea what to paint. I followed by guidance. For an entire year. I guess I have been listening, at least in part. Anyway, back to tonight’s painting. I think it’s strange, stupid even, to write forgive with two infinity symbols on a painting. But, I’m following my guidance. They haven’t steered me wrong…ever. In fact, whenever I’ve gotten into trouble, it’s because I haven’t listened to them. Free will and all.

I give you…forgive. Forgive what’s happened, forgive what’s to happen. But most of all. Forgive you.

Take a minute and focus on the word forgive. See what happens, what comes to mind, what you see, what you feel, what you know.

I would love to hear your experience with this painting so please leave me a comment below.

Forgive.

w.

5/366 Painting of the day, Forgive, 5 Jan 2020 ©WQuinn

Choices

ottawa river at sunset
Ottawa river taken from the War Museum. October 2012. © Wanda Quinn

Have you ever had one of those days when you’re faced with choices yet you’re not sure which way to go?  Our lifetime is filled with choices: Do I go left or right? Should I take the job? Should I break up? Is (s)he the right one for me?

Sometimes the choice is easy in that it’s clear which direction to take. But there are times when the direction isn’t so clear. In fact, sometimes it’s so unclear that we flail around like fish out of water afraid of making the wrong choice thereby not making a choice at all. Not making a choice puts you in a worse spot than making a wrong one. Why? Because there is no such thing as a wrong choice. Every choice or decision you make is a movement forward on your path.

We are often presented different paths to choose from – one may appear harder than the other – but they’ll both lead us to our final destination . So, the next time you’re flailing about trying to decide whether to go right or left  ask yourself this: does it bring me closer to my goal? Ultimately, you want to make choices that bring you closer to your goal.

Why are some choices so clear and others not?

I find two things generally contribute to making your judgement cloudy:

  • The first is you’re not grounded and centred. This may sound new age, even lame or repetitive – I know – but trust me when I say it makes a huge difference. Life is so much easier to navigate when you’re living in the moment; when you’re living from your heart centre (versus your head); and when you’re grounded and centred.
  • The second is fear. Being afraid of making the wrong decision (or the right one for that matter.) Afraid of looking stupid or being different. Afraid of not being happy. Afraid of being who you truly are and letting your light shine to it’s full potential.

We’ve been so used to being in control of our lives and believing – at least telling ourselves – that  we’re happy and this is as good as it gets – that the thought of actually letting go control and letting a higher power take over and take us to incredible new heights that are unknown to us is… well… it’s unimaginable, it’s unthinkably, it’s crazy, but above all else – it’s terrifying.

My guides have shown me an overhead view of our journey on earth. The way it was shown to me is that of a board game – because I often refer to life as a “game”. In the middle of the board is a bright shining circle of light. That light is God (or whomever your higher power may be) and reaching that light is our goal. We begin our journey at the edge of the board and there are many paths that cross, intersect and run parallel to the one we’re on. There are events that cross our paths and we have the choice of whether to judge them “good” or “bad”. They are neither… they are just events. My guides showed me this and said: “All paths lead to the centre. All paths lead to God. Some get you there faster, some slower. When choosing your path, choose the one that will bring you the most joy.”

If you find yourself at a crossroads and you’re unsure of which path to take, get grounded and centred, take a deep breath and ask: Which path will bring me closer to my goal? Which path will bring me the most joy? and which goal can I be of the most service?

A helpful visualization exercise

I find this visualization exercise very helpful:

See your current situation as the road you’re on. You’ve come to the end of it and what lies ahead is another road perpendicular to the one you’re currently on (that’s to say it’s a T). You can go right or you can go left.

Imagine yourself going right. What does the path feel like as you walk along? Is it bright as if a light were shinning on it or dark as if the sun was covered by a cloud? How do you feel? Happy, Sad, Joyful, Scared, Energized, Tired? How is your physical body reacting? Pay attention to your breathing, to your stomach, to your shoulders. Are you tingling with excitement? Is your heart racing and full of peace and joy. Do you feel light and airy? Are your shoulders lifted high up touching your ears? Are you holding your breath? Is your breathing shallow? Are you tense and rigid? Do you feel heavy and weighted?

Take a deep breath and shake off the image. Take another deep breath and imagine going left. Pay attention to your feelings and senses and to your physical body.

Compare your experiences from the right and left paths. The path that felt light, airy, joyful, happy and brought tingling to your body is the path to take. The path that felt heavy, sad, dark and tense is the path to avoid.

In love and light,

Wanda