Tuesday, 16 July 2019
Almost 200 days of the year have passed us by. This is the first time in…well… probably ever, that I have been present in the moment, each and every day. Thanks to this creative project, I am aware, looking for a moment to capture on camera or on a page, writing or painting. It has made me realize how precious time is and how much beauty surrounds it.
When you look for beauty in the world, you are gifted with an abundance of it. Unfortunately the same goes for hatred and violence. The universe doesn’t discriminate. Whatever you give attention to shows up in spades.
I wish I could say, after 197 days, I have gotten to the place where I no longer care if people like my artwork or that I have grown a thicker skin. What can I say? I’m a work in progress.
I am my own worst critic. I work at a painting for over an hour, step back and shrug. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day. I post it and receive awesome feedback and I’m confused and surprised anyone likes them. I would say, out of 197 paintings, there may be a few I am really proud of. The rest, well…
The hardest part of this project is posting to social media and this blog. Especially when I’m not happy with the results. I’m a perfectionist and I care way too much what people think. I spend way too much time trying to please others, posting what I think people would like instead of what I like.
Before this project, I wouldn’t post a photo unless it went through post production first. But I realized that that’s not real photography. It’s good post production skills. There’s a big difference. Now I try to enhance the photo while/before taking it. It’s been a gawd-awful journey with some cringe worthy photos being posted but it’s also been an awakening, being present in the moment kind of gift as well.
So, the journey continues and here are tonight’s painting and photo of the day. The paintbrushes are an Amazon Prime splurge.
These clouds look like they’re having a conversation.